The Positve Test

WEDNESDAY - AUGUST 4TH, 2010

5:30am - I woke up this morning knowing I was going to take a pregnancy test, as my body was not acting normal. No spotting like I usually do, no anything. I peed on the marvelous little stick and I waited...and I waited.....and I waited....nervous of what it was going to say. It was the LONGEST three minutes of my life! I kept looking away and then glancing back to see the little hour-glass still blinking (lovely digital technology!:)! Finally, I looked back and there it was - the word "PREGNANT" staring me in the face. I was stunned! I wanted it to be true, I was hoping it would be true, I was praying that whatever it would say, that I would trust God's timing! I started crying and praising God for this hope, this dream, this desire that had finally become a reality. Now it was here and I was in complete shock and in awe of my Father in heaven for this gift! After I collected myself I grabbed my camera and began diligently trying to take a decent picture of this little plastic stick that just created so many mixed emotions in me. After I felt I had taken one good picture out of the 10+ that had been taken, I made my way back into our bedroom to tell the Daddy of this newly growing baby, my wonderful husband, that we were pregnant! I woke him out of a dead sleep at 5:45am and said, "guess what?..(the dramatic pause)...we're pregnant!" He was shocked and still half asleep, but he was excited! We spent the next minutes snuggling in our bed, just taking in the idea of actually being pregnant and becoming parents. Then Matthew prayed the most beautiful prayer. A prayer for this new life growing inside me, for us becoming parents, and for us, that we would realize that this baby is not ours, but a gift God has entrusted to us and to release him/her knowing that he/she belongs to God. He then proceeded to go into "Daddy" mode, talking about all that will need to be done on the baby's room! Within 10 minutes he had the whole project priced out in his head! :) It was adorable! We were both still in shock and couldn't believe this moment had finally arrived.

Lord, thank you for the gifts you give to your children, for answering the prayers and desires of our hearts. Help me to go through this pregnancy with open hands to you, not with grasping ones that seek control and ownership, but ones that are open and surrendered to you and your power and authority in my life, Matt's life, and the life of this little "poppyseed" (now "grape" 9.11.10) baby growing within me!

THANK YOU TO ALL THE FAMILY AND FRIENDS THAT WERE PRAYING FOR ME AND FOR THIS PREGNANCY - PLEASE CONTINUE! :)